I Almost Forgot That I No Longer Love You
It was today, after our fleeting, polite meeting, that I remembered once again that I no longer love you. We lost everything that once made us special. Our kisses under red lights, the way we held hands as we walked, the sweet goodbye hugs…
Everything that made us dream of building a better world together has disappeared. The things we thought were ours and designed just for the two of us. The things we thought we could overcome. These things look down on us right now and remind us that we just were not strong enough to fight through them.
For a moment I almost forgot what happened. But immediately I come to realize that we are no longer connected as one; we just become two . My mind still has a hard time believing in the idea and is confidently trying to illuminate my days with the memories of when we were together…
Even when my mind is trying to cheat me, e lsker I not tell you more . Our story has already come to an end. I ran out of willpower to continue fighting for something that might not be for us . You could not paint a smile on my face anymore because I no longer love you because you have not added anything to my story.
Everything we experienced had its time to shine
When our eyes meet again and we laugh at a joke again… When our special language without words works again and we remember something we experienced together. Maybe then I forget. Maybe I doubt myself. But then I have to get back to reality and accept that everything we experienced together already had its time to shine.
The past had its chance and it did not become part of the story. We were a tale that ended as we lived out passionately and did not ration the love we felt for each other. Time did not give us a break to look ahead and see what came. We lived fully, the good as well as the bad. And that’s exactly why I no longer love you.
We continue to bump into each other. We still share some moments. But they will no longer be ours. They are no longer filled with love and magic. These moments will not be bricks on a path we are building towards something bigger, something better.
These moments will no longer be an indispensable part of my life. In my memory, they will just be lost or remain in the rest of my memories. Things that are not worth that much anymore . Because while I can sometimes forget, I know I no longer love you.
No more love, because I know I no longer love you…
The time to say “I love you” is behind us. The time to show “I love you” without saying a word is gone. Now only polite kisses on the cheek and kind greetings remain, the kind you give even if you do not have an ounce of love in your heart.
I almost forgot that I no longer love you when we bumped into each other… But when you told me that you are now going through life with someone else, I realized that these kisses now belong to someone else’s lips. I almost forgot, but no ; I do not love you anymore.
Now I just wish you happiness. In the meantime, I keep the small fragments of you that still belong to me. I will settle for that . Even though I no longer own your “ I love you ”, I sometimes forget that I no longer love you…
